Labor Nurse is very, very tired....
I thought that graduating would free me up, which in some sense it has, but instead of clinical and tests and papers and the like, I have work, work, and a little more work in between studying for the boards. Which, by the way, is coming up very soon. Like next week.
I am also interviewing, which is an equally tiring process. There is so much thinking involved. I wanted to leave the thinking on cruise control for a while since my brain has been in overdrive for 2 straight years but instead I have to think about call schedules, salary, benefits, midwifery support, new grad fears, malpractice insurance, and suturing perineums all on my own.
And work has been funny. Some days I work with a crew that seems genuinely happy to have me around. I even had someone tell me she'd miss me when I leave for the "big leagues". I actually wish I wasn't leaving because I do like where I work (I'm even saying this after 12+ hours of caring for an 18 year old primip at 35 weeks with pre-eclampsia on magnesium sulfate, poor pain control, high dose pitocin regime, late decels, and the inevitable failure to progress leading to a primary c-section with immediate postpartum hemorrhage requiring me to give misoprostil rectally while the girl was laying strapped to an OR table. It's not easy trying to get these pills into an orifice in which the person is laying flat on. Oh, and chorioamniotitis too!). But they don't want midwives.
That being said, I am so glad that I am where I am at. God damn, I deserve a party! Why didn't anyone throw me a party?
labor nurse has been reborn and shares her experiences as a new nurse-midwife, woman, and blogger
Tuesday, September 23, 2008